It was Tar Barrels/ Pixie night and everyone was drinking/smoking a joint
I needed to chill out/relax
It made me feel good at the beginning
I wanted to fit in
It made me feels more grown up
I feel so low at the moment
All my mates are doing it so it must be OK
They make me feel happy, sad, aggressive,funny, sexy, angry, tired, ill, pressured, dizzy, disorientated, elated, weird, pressured, cool, funky and vulnerable.